SO, this halloween was a bit different for me! I got to perform one of my favorite musical theatre songs at a karaoke halloween party... Here's the vid of my performance!!! Hope you like it.

Okay so, this wedsneday I had my final exam for the lectureship Drawing I, which in Argentina we call a colloquium, well, things got emotional because the main Professor who is like 60 something told us it was his last exam of this kind because he is retiring after 30 years of teaching.

One would thing to us it meant nothing but for me at least, after meeting him and having his guidance through one of the most difficult years of my life it was really hard to say goodbye, and I think it was the same for him too. He loves all his students but I feel like we both developed a sort of granfather-granchild sorta bond. I had to force myself not to cry like a baby on the way home because I will truly miss him, and selfishly I wanna think he will too...

As someone who lost their grandparents on both sides of the family very young I really unconciously til now seeked that sort of bond with other people older than me, than familial feeling of being someone's grandchild, sharing my achievements and seeing them proud of my growth. I never got to show my real grandparents how much i changed and that will forever hurt me but with this teacher I got to feel that once again and I will always be grateful for that.

Thanks to all the professors in that lectureship that got me through this year, but specially thanks to Hugo. I will always have him and his colleagues in my heart.

Sorry for the long time without updates lol, it's been a long since I had time to sit down and write something for myself.

I don't think I have much to say tbh, things have gotten better I think, I'm finishing my college year sorta, I have some subjects to course next year but so far so good. I also got better in theatre, everything is better in general for me, ignoring the current political climate of the country.

I wanna try n work and study at the same time next year, while also juggling theatre...maybe idk, they are raising their monthly prices and I don't wanna pay a 100 bucks, it makes me feel lk guilty. I rather find something else to do, but we'll see! If I have more time I wanna like spend more time working on my social media presence for art... I wanna take commisions lol.

IDK what else to say tbh, I hope y'all are good!!! have a nice rest of your day!!! :3

So... recently I've been VERY busy with both college and theatre. I have a lot of college assingments due for example I have to finish 1 painting, and make 2 others plus a photo montage for Painting I. I had to sculpt a cement block for Sculpture I which I barely passed because the professor had mercy on me since I was doing well with former assingments. I also had to finish a big ass drawing for Drawing I and also have another big ass drawing due for that subject. On the other hand I have a group assignment for "Problematics of 20th-century Latin American art" which I haven't been able to start with my friends because since I had a theatre assingment to present that needed some extra rehearsals we couldn't find a single time frame to even start the project.

Now that we have all that context, I theorize that due to all this academic stress I catched the flu or smth similar. Mostly because it's spring here and it wouldn't make sense to catch the flu in hot weather. Like, I'm talking about headaches, muscle pain, cold symptoms even jaw pain on the left side of my head. All because I have all these things not done yet which I could finish in like 2 days but since I am very sick I can't even make my head work because of how much pain I'm in.

To be honest I just wanted to rant, I don't have anything relevant to say about all this. I just hate being this sick because I never get this bad and it's very painful for someone who isn't used to being sick for a week and a half.

I also have a birthday party tonight so that's uh... gonna be fun. Hopefully.

All this to say, I don't fuck with the study obssesed bitches that romanticize lack of sleep and sickness related to academic stress. It's not fucking worth it, I DON'T CARE. Getting academic vaidation isn't worth getting the flu. Also I don't think you can like do your best if you are suffering from wtv health (mental or physical) issue. Like, you just can't. I might sound too woke but thinking that getting high scores on school/college/wtv is worth sacrificing your health for is a very capitalistic and exploitative behavior.

Anyways I just wanted to complain because I am in pain haha, bye, I hope you all are okay... Please take care!

Yesterday I went to the theater to see The Phantom Of The Opera, which is one of my favorite musicals ever. I'm not US american nor european so you can imagine that the function was slightly different from other popular iterations of the musical.

The only thing I think they could envy about Broadway for example could be maybe the costumes???? Idek, they weren't bad mostly, some did look straight out of a party supplies shop tbh but the main ones were very cool nonetheless. Gotta take in count, the production was brought near my hometown without the whole original cast since it would have been near impossible. Only the Phantom was from the original cast, because well, he was the main marketing point I guess. Let me clarify though, this is not a complain at all, the other members of the cast were local actors, extremely talented ones at that.

Although the stage wasn't a big deal, since the theater was a small one, it was definitely compensated with the acting, the music and the live orchestra!

I've seen in the Phantom's (Juan Rodó) instagram that in Buenos Aires (where the OG production was) the stage and the costumes were more like the international iterations, with stage props and stuff but IDC because the experience was worth every cent. I'm just merely stating the differences for fun idk guys this is just an amateur review of the play.

One thing I really liked was that the actors used the whole theatre as a stage, they walked amongst the viewers, etc.

Now, funny and spooky part that was not planned in fact. There was a storm going the whole time and in one of the scenes where the phantom appears and Meg Giry says "He's there! The phantom of the opera!" the lights went out! Like, literally, no electricity. It was funny asf because it was like oh damn he really is here ahhaha anyways thing is the actors stayed in character the whole fucking time pretending it was part of the show, saying things to us like "Ladies and Gentlemen, there was a little altercation, the lights will be back in the opera house in a minute"or smth like that, it was really sm fun. Even the actress who plays La Carlotta was like "omfg this happens all the time, I can't keep working with this opera ghost ruining everything" or smth lmaoooo

Anyways, thankfully the light came back and the show went on!

I don't have much to say after that, it was a 10/10 for me. The show ended with a standing ovation (which I was part of) that went idk how long but it was long because my arms went sore lmao.

Idk what else to say tbh, I really really enjoyed the show. It was truly magic. Might make a shrine for the musical now hahaha.

Sometimes I will see a cool old yt style vid and want to make one myself then I remember the time I tried to do just that and instead of getting comments about the topic I was talking about in the vid, all the comments were men (I'm serious, all of them had "male" names) sexualising me or "flirting" with me in the weirdest ways.... They talked about me like I was some sort of manic pixie dream girl just because I had green hair and a mayhem tshirt.

I remember some comment saying like "I am a punk, you can be my wife, I am edgy and dark too hahah" like tf?????

I ended up deleting the channel as a whole because of how uncomfortable and objectified I felt. Maybe I should have thicker skin idk, maybe that's just what happens but still. It's kinda sad to me.

Maybe I'll try again but this time without showing my face, even though I always tought it was the fun part. Or maybe I will create some sort of persona to dress up and shit, I've always wanted to try drag, specially transform into a sorta androgynous wacky drag king.

It could be a layer of protection for me I guess.

Sadly I don't have a comment section nor I think I ever will but it would've been cool to see if anyone reading this has experienced this type of behavior by strangers, not just men.

I'll look into the drag thing, maybe that's the "solution".

Thank you for reading, have a nice day/night...